photos from the phone

a little video

its hard to believe we have had this little girl with us for a whole month already! the time has gone by so fast and so slow at the same time given that all days seem longer when you run on three hours of sleep. as exhausted as i am this month has been the best getting to know miss mila and adapting to life as her mom.
we already can't get enough.

above is a little video of our first month with her. it sure has been wonderful, tiring, challenging, worrisome, beautiful and a bunch of other emotions all wrapped up in one. one thing is for sure, 2 a.m. is sort of my favourite time with her...weird right? i know!

m is for mila

it's a girl!

jay and i welcomed a baby girl a few weeks back and have been figuring out our new gig as parents one day at a time. each day is different so we've been getting in some pretty good lessons (and with little sleep i might add). there are days when i find it hard to believe she is really here and the wait to meet her and see her are finally over; but gosh am i over the moon to look at and hold this little one daily.

more to come on miss mila, much more to come!

xo

R, J & m

will it be this weekend?

my guess is no, but a mama can hope! i have a feeling boleslaw wants to stick around for a little while longer. so until the grand appearance happens i plan to soak up this belly, listen to albums i have been meaning to get to and stare aimlessly at the nursery being occupied by two fuzzy kittens. i have a feeling we will be scooping cats out of the bassinet on a regular basis once the baby comes.

boleslaw is 39 weeks old in this photo. pretty big difference from 16 weeks if you ask me. and i remember feeling so big at 16 weeks. little did i know!

hope you have an amazing weekend!

out & about

we are on baby watch over here expecting the little one's arrival in about two weeks but while we have been busing ourselves with the nursery, doctors appointments and my final days at work (now officially on mat leave!) we have still tried to make of the most of our days sans baby to see friends and hang out with each other as much as possible.

a few weekends back we took a stroll to kensington market to see our friends of ESCALATE play for pedestrian sundays. they are regulars for pedestrian sundays and really just a great listen for a summer sunday afternoon with a beer (or h2o for this one) on a patio with friends. or really just a great listen in general.

we were pretty happy to make it out successfully that day seeing as each new day brings more frequent trips to the bathroom and just general comfortableness. below are a few photos snapped of our day there. originally we wanted to go for an hour so we could get back home to get back to work but we ended up staying for about three hours. i blame the music, our friends, the sun, and a particular aussie who was in town for a short bit that i didn't think i would be able to see!  

some of the band's youngest fans supporting their dad in matching fedoras

 my favourite aussie below and a view of the crowd pedestrian sunday's draw.

if you venture to toronto in the summer, this is for sure worth checking out! 

hope you are enjoying your summer too!

a little note to no.1

we are 5 weeks out little one, 5 weeks out! i wish i could jot down every thought i’ve had about you, about being a mom, and about all the scenes that have played out in my head. it’s a lot believe me! there are ones that are appropriate for the time like the first time i’ll hold you or read to you or stay up all night worrying if you are getting everything you need. then there are other times i think about getting to introduce you to your brother or sister (because i’m that excited for our growing family) or how i hope i can help with homework (dad may be better at this, just say’n), or when you’ll meet the person you’ll spend the rest of your life with…this is where your dad tells me to maybe slow it down and take it one step at a time. fine.

…but really in two minutes all of these thoughts stir up again! so really, i just can’t wait to see you grow before us. of course, as your mom, i want a perfect path but knowing life is rarely perfect i’ve put together a little list of things i hope you achieve, i hope you always know, and hope you never forget.  so in no particular order, here you go:

i hope….

• you have courage and use it not only for yourself, but for others as well. it’s amazing to give support to other’s especially coming from a close knit person or a complete stranger.
• you know i’ll make mistakes, and dad will make mistakes, and you will make mistakes, but we are family regardless. despite any downfalls, we stick together, stay genuine and honest, and never shut the other one out.
• you find love and cherish it. it’s a beautiful thing to nourish too so stay kind, stay strong, and stay honest with who you are.
• you find joy and beauty in achievable things first. things like the people you surround yourself with  or a sunny day over the latest technology which is bound to become archaic and disinteresting a few years later.
• you find and know happiness in yourself. there will be people or times that might break this down a bit but it’s up to you on how you want your life to play out. choose optimism first and i promise you won’t drown in pessimism. 
• you see failure as a chance to overcome and not to be defeated.
• you develop an opinion based on your own educated research and not just one other person's opinion.
• you know at least three things that you love about yourself. these don’t have to be the same three things all the time and could change over time, just keep on to three great things about your life, your direction, and your world.
• you try new things. things that make you feel fulfilled and things that break you from the norm.
• you travel and see different cultures, hear different languages and realize there are so many different people in this world but so many similarities among us all.
• you take a compliment to keep it; give a compliment and mean it.
• you stick up for the underdog and have compassion for the boss. at the end of the day we are all people who have been or will be in each other’s shoes in one way or another.
• you embarrass yourself and laugh it off. it’s liberating in its own way i promise.
• you know you can get through it by yourself, with the help of others, or through the unexpected. you can overcome obstacles in life even if there seems to be no way out, there is, just find it.
• you get back what you put in.
• you never follow the crowd unless it’s towards the only exit out of the subway. in which case, follow the crowd.
• you are fully present wherever you are or wherever you end up.
• you run after an ice cream truck and encourage other people to do it too. i don’t really know why i want this for you but i do.
• you feel like you can ask for help and encourage others to do the same. there is no way and no reason to know everything about everything, so don’t try. it takes the fun out of learning something new.

above all, know you have taught us a new type of love before we ever met you. 

we talk about and to you every single day, and honestly i can’t see that ending any time soon.

5 weeks and counting little one, 5 weeks and counting! 

xo.

photos from the phone

over the past few months!